It's obvious that I haven't been here in a long time. A lot of things have been going on in my life that I needed to sort out. I'm even still sorting them out. I feel like I've lost a lot of people that I had become close with and I'm trying my hardest to even begin to try and get them back.

I suffer from depression and anxiety. Severe depression and anxiety and it was the cause of my stupidity, but it's still my fault. There isn't a lot that I can say about it. In order to fix things I have to speak, but I'm so afraid. I'm too afraid that I've just torn everything apart.

If you are reading this.. I'm sorry. You have no idea how sorry I am, for everything I've done and for being such a coward. I see your names pop up and I can't even bring myself to click them. Or even when I do, I start typing and second guess myself. I'm sorry I can't be more confident.

I'll... try to be more active.

Talk to you all later,

Emily